"You were in my dream again. I can’t remember what we were doing. What I can only remember is that..."

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You were in my dream again. I can’t remember what we were doing. What I can only remember is that you were there. I can only remember the look on your face, your eyes, your smile. I still can remember the feeling. The hope I felt when you told me to stay. Yes, you told me to stay. I stayed. You were about to tell me something. But it didn’t happen. It didn’t happen because even in my wildest dream, I will never find the answer. I woke up from that dream with dismay and a bit of sadness. Because you are not telling me everything. Not even that thing behind you chest. Not even a single thought inside your head. You’re not telling me anything at all. Every time our eyes meet, my heart cannot hear you say my name. It’s sad because all this time I’m the only one speaking. I’m the only one making up stories. It’s sad because I had to make up conversations in my head just to be able to speak to you. It’s sad because I still need to close my eyes and dream just to see and touch you. It’s sad because I felt like a ghost. It’s sad because Im alone in this hopeless battle I made myself.

But I’m still picking up pieces of broken hope. I’m still waiting for the answer to the question I never asked you. Yes or no. Either way, we still have to go on living separate lives.

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- jannbanguis

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